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No More
I deleted the post. Not only because sometimes I'm misunderstood, but also because it basically was a rant.
Aren't we allowed to rant? Anyone else out there get bothered from time to time?
I don't hide how I feel. I don't stuff it. I can't pretend. Just NOT in my DNA. If you can't handle that about me... sorry. Find another blog.
That's who I am. I'm out there. My heart on my sleeve.
This oftentimes makes me a vulnerable person. I get wounded fast and easy. It's not hard for me to feel hurt by something someone says, does or even by a look they might give me. I try to give most people the benefit of the doubt. I feel like I am fairly easy to get along with. But, sometimes, after like 10 years of reoccuring hurt over and over again by the same person even after they've been confronted... well, sometimes, I loose it.
I'm not going to apologize for being honest about how I am feeling. A great friend once told me that you can't help how you feel, you just have to feel it. It is truth. You can control how you act as a result of your feelings. It's hard, but you can do at least that. My feelings, a few days ago, got away from me. Too many of my buttons got pushed one right after the other. I just lost it. But, honestly, that's how I was feeling. And so, fellow blog readers, it landed on you. That is life. And now it's deleted.
The blog is deleted, the feelings are not. I have a migraine. The uncertainty and the negativity of the environment I'm going into... well, it causes me to come unglued a little. However, it is a part of my life... and for better or worse, I have to make the best of it. I have to focus on my truth. I have to take deep breathes and live. I have to enjoy what's in front of me. I have to have a good attitude and try. I have to because the alternative wears me down like a file on raw skin. It sucks the life out of me to dwell on bad.
So, no more. I choose the good. And that is how I'm feeling today.
Aren't we allowed to rant? Anyone else out there get bothered from time to time?
I don't hide how I feel. I don't stuff it. I can't pretend. Just NOT in my DNA. If you can't handle that about me... sorry. Find another blog.
That's who I am. I'm out there. My heart on my sleeve.
This oftentimes makes me a vulnerable person. I get wounded fast and easy. It's not hard for me to feel hurt by something someone says, does or even by a look they might give me. I try to give most people the benefit of the doubt. I feel like I am fairly easy to get along with. But, sometimes, after like 10 years of reoccuring hurt over and over again by the same person even after they've been confronted... well, sometimes, I loose it.
I'm not going to apologize for being honest about how I am feeling. A great friend once told me that you can't help how you feel, you just have to feel it. It is truth. You can control how you act as a result of your feelings. It's hard, but you can do at least that. My feelings, a few days ago, got away from me. Too many of my buttons got pushed one right after the other. I just lost it. But, honestly, that's how I was feeling. And so, fellow blog readers, it landed on you. That is life. And now it's deleted.
The blog is deleted, the feelings are not. I have a migraine. The uncertainty and the negativity of the environment I'm going into... well, it causes me to come unglued a little. However, it is a part of my life... and for better or worse, I have to make the best of it. I have to focus on my truth. I have to take deep breathes and live. I have to enjoy what's in front of me. I have to have a good attitude and try. I have to because the alternative wears me down like a file on raw skin. It sucks the life out of me to dwell on bad.
So, no more. I choose the good. And that is how I'm feeling today.
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