Tuesday, February 15, 2011

25 Things You Don't Know About Me

1. I hate waking up. I love sleeping. I never want to go to bed and I never want to wake up after I've gone to bed.
2. My feelings get hurt super easy... even a look without words, and I'm crushed.
3. I'm super passionate, to the point that I often can't sleep and am overwhelmed with so many ideas and possibilities running through my head.
4. I'm rebellious against the PTA. I'm a mom of a 15 year old, 5 year old and 3 year old and so far I've been able to avoid all school meetings and committees and boards.
5. I loved the band "Motley Crue" as a teenager. I may or may not have their greatest hits on my i-pod.
6. I'm married to a pc, but I think I'm a mac. (SSSSHHHHHHH)
7. I wish I had SKIPPED my Sr. Prom. Seriously, a waste of time.
8. I've grown more emotionally, spiritually, and business-wise in the last year than ever before.
9. I don't like politics. Discussing, arguing, dealing with "appearances" of who thinks what and what they say they are when they really aren't.
10. I think wearing my pj's is better than any other clothes. Even when I go shopping, all I really want to buy is warm up suits, sweats, or pajama pants.
11. I love good food.
12. I have a birthmark on my left thigh, and it's the exact same birthmark that my Great Grandma Margaret Wilson had on her leg, too. My oldest son has it as well, but it's on his calf. It's just a little guy, looks like an island.
13. I believe that second chances are often more powerful than first time arounds.
14. My hair, which is out of control curly now, was stick straight as a child.
15. I have a bit of a photographic memory. I can close my eyes and see exactly what things look like. This was helpful in college during tests.
16. I've been to therapy. Quite a bit. It's helped me understand a lot about myself and those around me. It's also helped me to take control of things that were out of control in my mind.
17. I spend a lot of time looking at the artwork of others. (Probably an hour a day)
18. I hate doing dishes and laundry. I avoid them for as long as possible.
19. I believe most people are good. They just don't know it, believe it, or can show it.
20. I have nice handwriting. I can't help it.
21. I have one brother, six years younger. I always wanted a sister, but instead God have me a best friend that lived nearby and we grew up together like sisters.
22. I grew up in poverty, in a small town, on a farm, in a trailer house. This taught me invaluable life lessons.
23. I've never owned a brand new car. I probably never will.
24. I ordered this swimsuit from the J. Crew Catalog in college. It was my first purchase from a catalog with my own credit card.
25. I love gourmet cooking, but actually used to hate cooking altogether! It's weird how things have changed!

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Doing Something...

I'm just overwhelmed.
This. Starting a new life business. Is. Hard.
We don't always know where the cash is going to come from or when it's going to come in. We aren't really sure we can afford to live this life.
Yet, I know, in my heart of hearts, I'm doing the right thing. I'm where I'm supposed to be, loving my kids, picking them up from school, being there for them all the time.
I feel so sad that I missed out on so much of them in the last two years when I was working at a job that kept me away. All. the. time. So, I made a change.
Took a leap.
Made a risk.
Don't know how it's going to turn out.
Don't care.
Just loving these moments. This time. This.

Each day challenges me. I'm not answering to anyone but me. And I tend to let myself off the hook a little too often. It takes a huge and overwhelming amount of self control to make it happen. Every single second. And I don't always feel like "making it happen." Sometimes I'd rather take a nap. Or sit and watch the Food Network in my jammies. Sometimes, I'm just not motivated at all. And then, I obsessively guilt myself over it. And I don't do what I need to do to make it happen. I just don't do anything.

And to follow my own advice, "doing nothing results in nothing." And that's the truth of it.

So, tonight, the kids are in bed, the husband's on a service call... and I'm doing research. And I'm pushing myself to think bigger. And I'm doing the work. What it takes, to make it happen. I'm doing something, which will result in something.

Couple of inspirational places to visit:
http://natalienortonblog.com
http://tarawhitney.com/justbeblogged
http://shellypeters.tumblr.com

I can do this. You can, too.