Crossroads...

It's a funny thing to be in a place where you're looking at which direction you should take. There are a lot of things involved in changing your life...

• Risk: let's face it. No matter what we're facing, we don't have a clue as to how it's all really going to turn out. That's why everything we do is a risk.
• Confidence: You either believe you can, that's why you're willing to try, or you don't believe you can. One or the other. I'm in the "I really want to try and am almost certain I can do it" camp. Somewhere floating in a sea of almost confident. However, in my heart, I know there's nothing I can't DO, there's no task so big that I can't have faith and leap into it. It's who I am to the core. The jumping and leaping person.
• Practical Matters: How will these decisions affect me personally in all areas of my life. Financially, physically, with my family... etc. etc. How will I pay for this risk in all areas of my life? Will it be worth the investment of time and energy?
• Being Bulligerant: I have heard the following phrase over and over again in the last few months... like a re-occuring theme. "Never take 'NO' for an answer!" I believe this has something to do with persistance and continuing to "move forward." I personally, believe, that moving forward is the most important thing. As long as I'm growing in some way, getting better, learning more, becoming stronger and healthier and wiser and more spiritual. As long as there's movement forward, I am satisfied.
• Who cares what people think: If there's one thing I've learned fast, it's that everyone has an opinion. And a lot of times, they think they should share it with you. And often, it might not be in agreement with your beliefs or opinions. That's OK. But it's NOT going to define me. I know what I know what I know what I know. In my heart. In the center of all that I am. I will not let a little criticism stop me from trying. I will not let my passion be outflamed by the will of another person. I need to be who I am. I have no other choice. Support it, or get out of the way.
• Re-evaluation and Re-evaluation again: This entire process wouldn't be going on if I wasn't taking a good hard look in the mirror and looking at what can inspire me, what can I do differently, what makes me special. What can I give this world to leave it better? Who can I influence positively along the way? What inside me needs to change and how am I going to make that happen? What inside me can I never change and therefore must accept? What is so big that I need to give it to God and let him change? It's the constant process of growth.

I'm about to leap off a cliff and don't know where I'm going to land. Expect great things world, I'm not scared of you. And I have the power inside me to do the impossible. Watch and see.